down to the final hours

T minus 10 hours until departure. hopefully. I am hoping (keep your fingers crossed) to fly stand by to South Korea tomorrow morning. It was cheaper than a regular ticket, so I figured I would help the school out since I get that perk.
I will admit that I am completely panicked and have been in a state of nausea for the past 2 days. The nausea has has killed my appetite which means today, the day before I leave, I have eaten 2- count em- one, two- chicken nuggets, half of a single serve yogurt, a handful of chips and salsa, and one half of a fish taco. That's it for the entire day, which isn't a lot considering eating is one of my favorite things.
I have finished packing and each check bagged weighs in at 49.4 lbs with the maximum being 50 lbs. I am cutting it dangerously close. If the airport scales are any different than mine, then I am completely prepared to open my bags and put on my winter coat and a few extra sweaters if I have to. I will do what it takes. I already feel like I am bringing the bare minimum, which seems odd because 50 lbs sounds like a lot. It is very hard to pack for a year. I have no idea what I want to wear tomorrow, how can I possibly predict what I will want to wear 3, or 6, or 10 months from now??? The majority of that weight is actually taken up by toiletries. I needed to bring toothpaste, vitamins, advil, deodorant, pepto bismol, and cold medicine. I also brought some body wash and shampoo so I would have some of my own bath products. There is also a supply of a few of m favorites, including mac and cheese, cheez its, and cheese crackers that take up a lot of space and weight. In the end, I feel good about what I am bringing and I know that I can get anything I need in Seoul.

While I am pretty sure I am just going to lay here staring at the ceiling, I guess I should try and get some sleep. I have to wake up in 5 hours to get ready to go to the airport.

here goes nothing....